T

I’ve been thinking about going on T (testosterone), but I’m afraid that it may negatively effect my singing voice. I’m very happy about my singing voice, and how far it’s come since I started. I finally found my vibrato, I just started being able to use my head voice, I can actually sing in key, blah blah blah. When a year ago, I really couldn’t sing, and I just talked my lyrics while playing… and struggled. I don’t want to go back to that, and it’s important to me to be able to sing. I don’t want to give it up.

Being 16, and identifying as male is getting harder to do. I don’t pass as well as I did a year ago because of my age, and probably because of my hair growing long. I’m not going to cut my hair to pass either, so please don’t say “you should just cut your hair.” I like the way my hair is right now, I’ve always wanted long hair, I’ve always envied boys with long hair, and quite frankly I love the way it feels hitting my neck on stage… so no, I’m not cutting it. But passing is harder. All my cis-male friends have hit puberty, even my little brother has hit puberty. And it’s awkward for me. I have a high pitched speaking voice for a dude, my face has no facial hair, and as much as I work out I’m still not passing well.

One week I feel like ”no, how can I go on T and risk my voice? ” and the next I feel like “Holy shit I need to get on T, I’ll still be able to sing.” And honestly I have no idea what to do. My mind is boggled and I’m trying not to think about it but it keeps coming up.

If there are any transgender singers out there… please please please reblog or email me… feverpitch381@aol.com

Also if there is anyone that knows someone that knows more about singing on T then please contact me…